4 Sept 2018

Dear Sweet Lucy,

We've been talking about you lately. It's almost your special day and the girls and I noticed that your special day is sandwiched right between Emiko's and Rosie's birthdays. They thought that was really special.

The other day I was changing baby Mai Li's diaper in the bassinet. I felt someone bump into me and I turned around immediately to see who it was because I thought all of the other kids were playing outside. There was no one there who I could see, but I was sure I had felt someone touch my right back side just above my hip. I wondered if that was you. I wondered if, just like the girls always say, if maybe you needed some Momma time. Do you feel that same pull that each of your siblings have to be close to me, to spend time with me, to have my undivided attention. I wish I could give that to you. I hope you don't feel forgotten and neglected. It is hard to remember what is not before our eyes. Your siblings demand my attention constantly, but we only have little reminders of you now and then. Like when we see your special day on the calendar (Sept 9th), or when we pull out the FHE blanket which is your blanket, or when the girls talk about you or ask about you.

Oh, how I miss you.

Oh, how I love you, my little Lucy.

-Momma

13 March 2018 Just missing you

Dear Lucy Girl,

Today we were in the car going to ride bikes at the church house. We put a car seat in for Baby Mai Li. Emiko got so excited. She said, If Lucy were still here, we would have the whole car full!

I miss you, sweet friend. I will try my very hardest to be better so we can be together.

With all my love,

Poppa

4 March 2018

Dearest Lucy,

I was listening to a beautiful performance by Evie Clair of a song titled, "To Where You Are" by Josh Groban. Part way through I thought of you. I thought about how much I wish I could see your beautiful smile. To hold you in my arms. To tell you how much I miss you. I couldn't hold back the tears as I listened to this beautiful music and thought of you, my little angel baby. The day I lost was the saddest day of my life. I hope I will always remember and always be true to my covenants and promises so that we can be connected to you for eternity. I love you my dear sweet Lucy.

Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear
Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be

That you are my
Forever love
And you are watching over me
From up above.

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for a while
To know you're there
A breath away's not far to where you are.

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream?
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me
Everyday

Cause you are my
Forever love
Watching me
From up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
and that love will live on
And never leave

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for a while
To know you're there
A breath away's not far to where you are.
I know you're there
A breath away's not far to where you are